I’m sorry the blog has been down for so long. I’ve been through hell, to put it mildly. Jeffrey was badly sick at the end of September. Bad enough I took him to the emergency room on October first. He spent two weeks in the ICU and died of pnuemonia on October 13th. We were married for 37 years and had a wonderful life together.
Everything has been turned upside down. I was lucky enough to have someone take all the goats. Another friend took the geese, chickens and rabbits. My neighbor let my dogs out while I spent every other night away from home. I have been blessed by friends I didn’t really know I had. The people at church have been true family. Pastor and my neighbor were there when I had to make the decision to take Jeffrey off life support. (And I couldn’t go in to make that decision. As long as I heard the machines making him breathe, I could not have had him taken off life support.) Even the company I work for supported me. They paid for the time I took off and will cover with additional sick leave if I need it. I pity people who have to go through this without the kind of loving support I have had.
I’ve had to move off the place for the winter. I’m staying at a house the church owns. It has electricity and I’ve put in a phone. It will be “easier”, I guess. The dogs and cats have more room and seem to be adjusting a bit. I went back to work, after taking off the week he died and I seem to be holding up. So life goes on. I don’t know yet if I will be able to move back to our place or not. It is my plan to do so this spring. I can’t think of how hard Jeffrey worked to dig that garden and just let it all go. I will need to have something besides the trailer to live in and that is the sticking point. I may still build that yurt. Right now, I’m just trying to sort out what life without Jeffrey will look like.
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